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And it may as well be the first time all over again.

I had such good feelings, such strong, strong vibes that this was it, this was my time, my chance. But again, my body has failed me and I'm left with the same feelings. I just don't know how to function any more, my whole existence seems to centre around being pregnant. Everyone else can do it, why can't I? I feel like a failure and in the back of my head the sensible me is even at a low.

I feel rotten, and at an all time low. I feel like I deserve the D&C tomorrow, I don't want to let go of the dreams we had planned and the plans we had made but tomorrow I'm going home and need to give up the idea that I'll ever have a child on my own. I feel guilty for taking this from DP, and for replacing it with shattered dreams.

I'm at an all-time low, I haven't ever felt this bad.

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awww plz dont feel that way about urself, nobody deserves that. IM so sorry it has happened to you again. I just didnt want to read your post and not reply . Mind yourself x

i am sorry - thinking of you XXX

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Oh unknown I'm so sorry. But please don't blame yourself, there is nothing you could have done. Life is so cruel sometimes. Thinking of you and your oh

Can't imagine what ur goin thru, but please dont blame urself, its natures cruel way sometimes, nobody deserves it, nothing else i can say other than I hope u'll be ok xx

So sorry to read what you're going through.

Just take one day at a time.

Maybe after tomorrow is over you might consider some counselling to help you through it.

Take care.

So sorry to hear this Happened to me twice last year too at 7 weeks, got pregnant month after d&c & then again at 11 weeks & another d&c! Then took another year(was going out of my mind) & chemical pregnancy but I got there in the end & due in 6 weeks! Look after yourself x

I am so sorry to read of your loss and that you have to go through another D&C but please don't blame yourself. Life can be so cruel. Take care of yourself.

its understandable you feel this way,the disappointment is crushing.
give yourself time and you will pick yourself up and try again.don't give up on your dream.
mind yourself.

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you can't pull yourself together until you've fallen apart.

So sad reading your update unknown. The want for a child is all consuming and you are in no way to blame. It just wasn't little beans time. Take time to grieve your and your dh loss.

xxxxx

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I'm so sorry

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You don't deserve this - nobody does.

Please don't give up on your dreams or feel like you're a failure. Do you have someone IRL to talk to?

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I am so sorry for your loss, thinking of you xx

I am so sorry for your loss.

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DD June 06
DS1 Nov 09
DS2 Sept 12

So sorry you are going through this, please try not to blame yourself (I know that's easier said than done). You haven't taken anything from your dh, you are both in this together. Right now it's impossible to believe it will happen (I know) but in time you will start to feel the beginings of hope again.

Please mind yourself.

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Our rainbow baby has arrived!

So sorry you are going through this again

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RELAX...... nothing is under control.

I am so sorry to read your heartbreaking post. I have been where you are. We agreed when I lost for the 5th time that that was it for us. Physically and mentally we could take no more. Going in for that D&C was my lowest point. I kept thinking that nobody in the theatre understood that they weren't just taking that bean away but with it all our hopes and dreams of having another baby. We got through that time and almost a year later I found myself pregnant. I had no hope of a positive outcome, none at all. DH was annoyed with me for being so negative, in my mind I was being realistic. In spite of the odds that little bean made it. So please don't give up all hope. I don't know your history, have you had some tests done?
Just take some time for you and DP to recover. I promise your strength will come back. I wish you well. I'll be thinking of you.

Unknown_user I am so sorry for your loss, huge hugs!!!

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Never give on up on a dream just because of the time it will take to accomplish it,
the time will pass anyway!

Our little angel EDD 25/2/08 went to heaven 31/7/2007

Dont give up . After 4 m/c including an ectopic my ds1 is now 15 weeks . I too thought this time wouldn't come but alas it did xxx no one should go through it and when it was happening to me I consoled myself by saying it was gods way of protecting me from something worse down the line . Mind yourself xxx

So sorry to hear this has happened again. Go easy on yourself. There is nothing you could have done. Take care.

So very sorry for your loss
This is not your fault - you are not a faliure - you do not desereve any of it including the D&C
Am thinking of you and sending you lots of love and strength to get through this x

I'm very sorry for your loss unknown x

I'm so sorry, look after yourself.

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I am so sorry for your loss,m/c is heartbreaking

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DD1,20th Dec 2005
DD2,7th Jan 2010
DD3,18th June 2011